Hi everyone, have a burning question and looking for any advice, thank you in advance.
I joined the navy in 2016 and started basic in 2017 (18 y/o), passed out of Raleigh with no issues, however my phase 2 had a fair few bumps, some mine and some not mine, but looking back I probably didn't respond how I should have done with choices I made in regards to leaving. I applied to transfer, was approved, then had it taken away last minute, and a second time was approved for warfare (ET) surface fleet, but when it came to it it was actually Sonar on the subs, at this point I could either transfer to the submarines or 'choose' to be discharged. I say choose loosely because I had a couple of academic warnings, no discipline warnings or anything of that nature, but at the time being an 18 year old lad who wanted to be out and about doing something less academic and more 'grunt' work, I left and had my eyes set on the RM. Due to circumstances with home life, I spent around 18 months basically being a dosser in a dead job, drinking way too much and only caring about going to the gym everyday as my only source of enjoyment, and the drink was just to not be alone sat in my bedroom at home.
Few months into 2019 i got my head straight, applied to the RM, went from not being able to finish the PJFT to running the second 1.5m in close to 8:30, top marks in the bleep test, pull ups and press ups, with a good showing on bottom field and the endurance course, I'd come a long way and was the first time in my life I actually felt proud to be me. The Military is the only environment I've ever enjoyed being in for longer than a week, but being out in the field didn't suit me at all, was being thrashed every single. morning for poor field kit musters and gave absolutely everything, but just couldn't improve in the field, towards the 10 week mark, this knocked me massively and things went downhill from there and after hunters moon I had an eye opening moment and knew that the RM wasn't me and I wasn't for the RM. I admit, I was poor in the field and not RM material in that respect, even though the effort was there, it was embarrassing.
At Lympstone, I was actually good whilst we was on camp, but our TC hated me from the beginning because I had been a trained rank and said in week 1 he was going to get me out. When asked what I would do if the RM wasn't an option, I said maybe a career in the fire service or police, he shot it down and said he'd personally write to them and 'blacklist' my name and said if I left training he'd personally see to me never getting into the forces again. Not going to get into everything he did, and at the time I didn't fully realise it, but he used to single me out and pull me away from the lads to thrash me in the middle of the night on Ex. or even on camp 'just because', and the chaplain. noticed after seeing us on multiple exercises and asked me about it all.
I know this seems like a massive sob story, it's not meant to be, but to give as much insight as I could to see if there is a possibility or what could be holding me back from re-joining, but this time to the fleet again. Everyone always picks up on how talkative I am when my time in the navy or marines comes up and how it seems to be the thing that sparks passion in me 100% of the time, and I can't lie, I miss everything about the Navy and think about it every day and wonder what life would be like if i just sucked it up and joined the subs.
Sorry for the very lengthy post, any advice is greatly appreciated, whether it is good or bad news for me.
I joined the navy in 2016 and started basic in 2017 (18 y/o), passed out of Raleigh with no issues, however my phase 2 had a fair few bumps, some mine and some not mine, but looking back I probably didn't respond how I should have done with choices I made in regards to leaving. I applied to transfer, was approved, then had it taken away last minute, and a second time was approved for warfare (ET) surface fleet, but when it came to it it was actually Sonar on the subs, at this point I could either transfer to the submarines or 'choose' to be discharged. I say choose loosely because I had a couple of academic warnings, no discipline warnings or anything of that nature, but at the time being an 18 year old lad who wanted to be out and about doing something less academic and more 'grunt' work, I left and had my eyes set on the RM. Due to circumstances with home life, I spent around 18 months basically being a dosser in a dead job, drinking way too much and only caring about going to the gym everyday as my only source of enjoyment, and the drink was just to not be alone sat in my bedroom at home.
Few months into 2019 i got my head straight, applied to the RM, went from not being able to finish the PJFT to running the second 1.5m in close to 8:30, top marks in the bleep test, pull ups and press ups, with a good showing on bottom field and the endurance course, I'd come a long way and was the first time in my life I actually felt proud to be me. The Military is the only environment I've ever enjoyed being in for longer than a week, but being out in the field didn't suit me at all, was being thrashed every single. morning for poor field kit musters and gave absolutely everything, but just couldn't improve in the field, towards the 10 week mark, this knocked me massively and things went downhill from there and after hunters moon I had an eye opening moment and knew that the RM wasn't me and I wasn't for the RM. I admit, I was poor in the field and not RM material in that respect, even though the effort was there, it was embarrassing.
At Lympstone, I was actually good whilst we was on camp, but our TC hated me from the beginning because I had been a trained rank and said in week 1 he was going to get me out. When asked what I would do if the RM wasn't an option, I said maybe a career in the fire service or police, he shot it down and said he'd personally write to them and 'blacklist' my name and said if I left training he'd personally see to me never getting into the forces again. Not going to get into everything he did, and at the time I didn't fully realise it, but he used to single me out and pull me away from the lads to thrash me in the middle of the night on Ex. or even on camp 'just because', and the chaplain. noticed after seeing us on multiple exercises and asked me about it all.
I know this seems like a massive sob story, it's not meant to be, but to give as much insight as I could to see if there is a possibility or what could be holding me back from re-joining, but this time to the fleet again. Everyone always picks up on how talkative I am when my time in the navy or marines comes up and how it seems to be the thing that sparks passion in me 100% of the time, and I can't lie, I miss everything about the Navy and think about it every day and wonder what life would be like if i just sucked it up and joined the subs.
Sorry for the very lengthy post, any advice is greatly appreciated, whether it is good or bad news for me.