Hi Guys, basically I'm a fraud, or is a freud and it's time for me to depart and darken your doors no longer. However genetically I AM intersex and if I took my shirt off I would basically resemble a Jenny because I do have breasts! The genetic abnormality I have is called Klinefelter syndrome.
I owe you all an explanation and my deepest apologies for being such a fcuking barsteward and letting you all down so badly.
I joined the Royal Observer Corps when I was 16 and later got involved with and joined the RNXS, which frankly I loved. It was during this time, and no earlier, that I began to realise that I was gay. Electric shock treatment did not alter how I felt towards men. Taking a solution of Zinc/Aluminium salts to induce vomiting when I showed myself pictures of men, similarly did not work, so I was stuck (this may be the reason, incidentally, why my memory is such a problem now). When the RNXS was disbanded I was offered a level transfer to the RNR which I really would loved to have taken up, but obviously could not take the risk of being found out and kicked out. I told my Area CO, former Skipper of HMS Scylla in 1963 when his son was Christened in the ships bell, the same year I was born. I cannot remember his name unfortunately, but he was based at Gravesend. I told him that I couldn't move because I was in a reserved occupation. Unfortunately he checked up and told me that this would not be a problem. I found some other feeble excuse. I was too scared to tell him my real reason as I didn't want to be kicked out of the RNXS before it was disbanded.
Dunkers is very perceptive - he will go far! I am indeed Seacat. I am gay and I am mad on Ganges. I am been obsessed (in the pathological sense) since I was 15 so I know a great deal about her, but I could NEVER get my head round the thorny issue why so many people, whilst having such obviously terrible memories of the place, nevertheless seemed to have such a positive attitude about the place. I have felt for a long time that the RN ought to brought to account for what took place at Ganges. Since joining RR my attitude towards Ganges has COMPLETELY CHANGED. I now see how very wrong I was & in fact what good Ganges did - something I never expected to say! I should tell you that my respect for TROGS is the same as most people have for top footballers, one of enormous admiration. I know that I should certainly not have been able to cope with the harsh regime without crying myself to sleep every night. I also know that I would probably (had I dared) attempted to run away.
The reason I posed as a TROG was that there were lots of issues I needed to explore which I simply was too cowardly to deal with being myself.
For those who have read my recent inputs as Seacat on the HMS Ganges Association's website, I would like to see this idea carried forward, though clearly now I cannot be in any way associated with it, now my name is tarnished forever.
I should also be very grateful if someone here would forward this message to the Bad-CO so that he can see WHY I am so utterly unsuitable to become a Moderator!
If you ever meet me I know I deserve a good kicking - I've had quite a few of those just for being gay, and I promise I wouldn't grass you up as I'm sure you realise - if you're gay it's not a realistic option - and anyway in this case I would have earned it for once for something I have done rather than for something I am.
I have loved my time on RR and, dare I say it, grown very fond of all of you. I should certainly risk my life for any one of you if the situation arose as you are all really great people. I wish you lot were running this country! I am especially sorry Nutty for letting you down. I could have done with a dad like you!
Anyway, it is time for me to scuttle off into proverbial Hades and for you to get your heads down and welcome a Seacat and Nozzer-free Rum Ration from tomorrow morning onwards. I shall pop in ananymously at times, just to enjoy the jokes and humour. I will also read this column to get a taste of your full fury/disappointment with me - which should also serve as a warning to others of my ilk! I should prefer honesty (read - be as damning as you want) but I should know by now, that I'll get that anyway. Goodbye! :cry: